Been Lazy Again

So I've been lazy again. I keep intending to post something daily, but as you can see, my commitment is not what it should be! Still, this is my place in the world and I want to share, so here goes.

The past couple of weeks have been busy for me! I have moved into a new place and I have changed shifts at my workplace.

The new place is lovely and I am enjoying my new little space in the world. I have been keeping busy and happy setting up the place, but I fear it will be months before I am even completed to with the basics. I have two rooms and a bath to myself and that is enough for me!

At work the new shift is a ten hour shift. That allows me three days a week to be free to play and get things done. Maybe I will at least manage a post or two here! Anyway, I am back and I really do plan to write more here, enjoy all!

Good Job Pakistan!

I just wanted to post a note to all the Pakistani's who have the courage and the valor to fight against the extremist Taliban. I am proud to see that some parts of the Muslim world will not tolerate extremist trying to take over their homes and trying to force false doctrines of abuse and control on their people. I have complained more than once that we do not see this kind of courage against the Taliban in that part of the world and I am grateful that good Pakistani's have the strong sense of conviction to keep such forces at bay! I commend you all and pray that you will be successful in diverting them away from your home!

Happy House Hunting!

The house hunt is on. Do you think this is too small for my needs? I was thinking not enough room for family gatherings, but it might just have to do, lol.

I am actively looking for a new place to live. I am always surprised at how many answers I get to an ad and about how diverse the people who answer the ads are. I have had answers from younger folks and older ones, from people of different colors and nationalities, from people in a rush to get you in no matter who you are and from those who want credit and background checks. I swear in some cases a sign that says ‘Axe murderers must bring cash’ would be the appropriate ad text, because some will offer a place to anyone and just don’t seem to care. It seems that all walks of life are sharing housing these days.

I have also had offers for all types of places. From people who own high end homes with mother in law suits that they want to rent out to people who actually want to share one room together in a single bedroom apartment or home. I have seen pictures of large rooms, small rooms, rooms with and without baths. Places with household privileges and places where the rental begins and ends at the room. I have even been sent pictures of dirty rooms with litter all over the carpet and I wonder what kind of individual these attract.

I have also found that the price range on rooming situations is not that wide compared to price ranges when shopping for a house. I have also noticed that the quality of the room does not seem to have much to do with price. It’s almost like most people have a magic number regarding what they consider the value of a single room and bath and they all seem to stick in the same range regardless of whether they live in a palatial home or in a modest hovel.

I am excited about the prospect of the future and even look forward to it. But I do have concerns about repeating the mistakes of the past. Still, I think I have learned enough to move forward and try again. But only time tell.

Another Chapter Ends

Sadly this week, another chapter in my life ends. I was in a living situation with a roommate and it has run it’s course. I find it sad that it could not end on a happy note, but that is the nature of life. Some things end nicely, others are like a car wreck.

I must admit that I feel somewhat distressed at the way this ended because I feel that I have been a good roommate and a good person. I feel angry that I have put a great deal of effort into being a good roommate and the payback for all this effort is to end up frustrated and angry. I am clean, quiet, considerate and respectful. I have never once walked into my roommates room without his permission and have only been in the room once when he invited me to look at the place. I have not ever stolen anything from my roommate and have been lucky to have not had occasion to accidentally break anything around the house.

I do not smoke, I seldom socially drink and I do not get out of control and sloppy when I have had a drink. I clean up after myself, I have good hygiene and I spend most of my spare time playing games on my computer or watching television quietly in my room. I am friendly, polite and kind to my roommate and to any guests he may choose to have over.

About a year ago, I was in a similar situation that did not end well. In that situation, I was feeling totally justified about ending the agreement as my previous roommate as a bit crazy. She would turn the temperature in our home down to the 60’s at night and would raise it up into the 80’s during the daytime. It was a no brainer that I had to get out and she needed to get a dose of reality.

In the current situation however, I feel at a loss. I will not give the details of the issues that we ran into here. I will not talk about them in part because it would take much too long to write or discuss here and partly because the issues are sensitive in nature and I do not want them spread out for all the world to see. But I will say how I am feeling about them.

I got home last Tuesday a bit early because I had earned some award time at work. I was relaxing in my room when my roommate knocked on the door hard and said ‘we have to talk’. When I came out, my roommate did not want to talk at all, he rather had a canned speech prepared for me and simply read me the riot act and asked me to leave in 30 days. He did return my rent to me to 'pay' for a new deposit elsewhere and I gleefully accepted!

As I mentioned earlier the things that he accused me of were sensitive in nature. I was also baffled because they had some element of truth to them, however the facts as he represented them were grossly inaccurate and were totally blown out of proportion to the point where the true elements of the issues could no longer be recognized. He also brought up an incident that I had told him about that happened almost 20 years ago and acted as if that was current and relevant information to support his argument.

I was not offered any opportunity to express my side of the issue and the fact is that he did not want to discuss the issue. He wanted to make his judgment and ruling and call it a day. At first I was dumbfounded. I was angry and wanted to get back at him for accusing me the way he did and even more for his total lack of interest in the facts. He had declared himself judge and jury and had issued his verdict.

But over the last few days, I have rather decided that I will not cast my pearls before swine and I will let it rest. The fact is that he has had a history of bad behaviors starting last February when he totally stopped talking and communicating without any provocation or incident. He would not speak to me and would lock himself in his room every day after work.

Several weeks after he stopped talking he approached me asking why I was avoiding him. I told him that I am not avoiding him, but I simply cannot carry on conversations with someone who is only able to respond with simple one syllable answers to any and all questions. If he wanted a friendship as we used to enjoy, he would have to participate, it was just that simple. From that time on, he would answer, but only when spoken to.

In any event, my feeling is just to say F*** it! I have too many good things going for me to let this interrupt my life and I simply don’t want to argue any more. So house hunting moves forward!

So to my roommate I offer you the one finger salute!

An Angel for you All

Hello all,

I don't know who to credit for this beautiful Angel picture, but I wanted to share it with you all. I love Angels and collect Angel art. The thought of someone watching over us to protect and comfort brings me peace, I hope it does for you too!

A Special Thank You!

Hello All

I wanted to take a moment to say a special thank you to two customers that I worked with today. One was male, the other was a female. Both of you took the liberty of screaming at me in tones so shrill and harsh that I could not make out what you were saying. Both of you shouted at me for prolonged periods of time, the guy won out with a tantrum lasting over 35 minutes. My company does not allow me to disconnect the call when people who behave as you do reach my line, so I have to have to calmly wait as you shout phrases at me that would make your mother blush and then I have to try to determine what the issue you are having is and resolve it for you. You make me grateful for so many things. First, I am grateful that when I start to behave like you have, I am reminded of my job and how stressful dealing with assholes all day every day is. It gives me great perspective about what really matters in life and reminds me how to treat others. Next, I grateful that you are your spouses and families problems and not mine, because I only have to deal with you for a short time in my life, they have to hear it daily, I feel great pity for those poor souls. I am also grateful that I have a job and good benefits in this economy. You may be a royal pain in the ass, but your keeping food on my table. And finally, I am very grateful that you are not too bright. One of you actually got so worked up that you could not breathe and had a coughing spell as you were shouting at me. When it was over, you said, See, can't you tell I am sick! To which I responded, yes, I can in a very quiet, calm and reassuring tone. However, I was not talking about your physical condition, I was referencing your very sick mind, you allowed me to say that directly to your face and actually thought I was having pity on you. And there is one other thing I am grateful for, when it was all over, I got to my peaceful home and spoke with a friend and my children about my day. I am so happy that I have good people in my life to remove the poison that people like you add to the world. At times, I want to pray that God will send you others like yourself to teach you a lesson in good manners, but then I remind myself that nobody, not even people like you, deserves to be treated like you treated me and I instead pray that God will have mercy on your tormented condition.

Been Lazy Lately

Something about this picture reminds me of when I was a kid. It comes from one of my favorite sites, Worth1000.com. I would suggest that anyone go there.

So I have not posted in a while. Just plain been to busy and too lazy to take the time. But if I am going to have a blog, then I should use it, right!

This week has been a mixed bag. One of my sons and his wife split up. I am so hurt because I don't want my son hurt and I do want them to succeed. But has a parent, sometimes it's my place to just keep quiet and move forward. Still, it breaks my heart that a good kid like my son has to suffer through the pain of life. I hope and pray that everything will work out, but there are no guarantees in life.

On the positive side. My newest grand child will be a boy. I would truly be happy either way, but it's nice to see my daughter so happy. I got to see his little pictures and I can tell you that sonograms have really come a long way since my children were in the womb. You can almost see the expression on the little guy's face.

Anyway, about the little angel and devil. I like this picture because it reminds me of every day of life. There are always choices to be made. They can make your life better or they can make your life harder. I also know the feeling of constant temptation and having to choose to do right or wrong daily. Anyway, it's just how I feel today!